I wanna fuck like a woman.
No, I don’t wanna be effeminate – but I want to be present in my lovemaking. Want to slow right down and feel every. Single. Stroke of your fingers as you play with my body like it was a prized instrument. See – as a man, I’m always rushing to climax, rushing to the precipice of resolve and throwing myself off just so I can feel the crazy rush of endorphins as I fall crazily into the abyss and splash noisily into the water beneath as I cum. And, as a man, I seek that crash. Those endorphins.
But, see, I realize that women fuck differently.
For one thing, they are multi-orgasmic naturally, where most men are one-shot wonders – at least, not without a rest in-between. You would think that this would mean that men would be the ones that would want to draw the intimacy out for as long as possible until we couldn’t take the teasing anymore – you would think! But our natural impatience, our go-go-go-right-now, our drive to achieve a goal predisposes us to rush and get to the end result. And miss the journey.
I love to watch women fuck each other.
There are licks and sucks and giggles and pants. There might be rolling bodies of passion. There may be pants of ecstasy. There is always exploration and wonder. And always the ‘lets start again’ of the multi-orgasmic state. I envy that. And it always seems to be fun. At least, that’s what I get out of watching or reading the encounters of multiple members of the feminine persuasion.
I need to learn to slow down.
I don’t know how to do this naturally. I can’t even slow down when I’m self-pleasuring. It feels foreign to try to slow down and enjoy the journey when I’m touching myself. But my most memorable sex moments were always when she slowed down on me – a heavenly hand job that slowly built up my orgasm to erupting climax, a loving lingam massage that got me hard enough for her to exclaim, “I have to ride this. Right. NOW!” before she sat on my strength and made my eyes roll back.
I want sex to be sensual for me.
I want to feel. I want to receive. I want to be catered to and to learn how to truly cater to. I want to truly exchange energies, not just siphon them off her and hoard them for myself. I want to give and take. I want to roll with the ebb and flow of the sensual energy, over and over and over again.
I want to fuck like a woman.